I'm currently locked in a bit of a tug of war between my designed desires for God's great plans and my worldly impatience and overall lack of perspective when it comes to time.
To be perfectly honest I don't know why that is playful.
I am still very much a child in that I want it all now. Even if my desires have been (more so) shaped to God's will it seems my expectations as to their execution and timing has yet to mature. Unfortunately, it's not one of those instances where I can put it off as a childish virtue, can I? If anything it torments me and frustrates me, and only once I realize that this angst is a result of my desire for God's will do I laugh at the shear irony of it.
It's like a sinful pursuit of heaven, being this impatient. As oxymoronic as that may sound I believe it to be true, for what other description is there? I desperately pray for patience and peace as I seek after may creator's designs for me, and I take joy in the fact that even when God has you on the right road, he'll redirect your pace and posture until that is perfected, too.
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